Well the first word of a blog, and the first blog of my life for that matter, it all feels very deep I think but bear with me as i set up my blog here, keep reading keep reading keep reading and ill try and make things amusing once i get into it. So this is the blog with which i as a self-aware being shall present my thoughts on the big and small to the world. Two aspects of this blog i think. One part will be my thoughts on the large picture of the world, especially Politics and Sociological commentary, because everyone loves commenting on that kind of stuff and is DEFINITELY qualified. The other aspect shall be the small minded ramblings of an individual in the world seeing the interactions and flaws in people and society paying special attention to hedonism and shallowness, probably sounding quite cynical and petty at times as we all do.
The overall thing im trying to find is if my mind is not working on the same wavelength as the rest of the world and im viewing it in a different light. I find myself feeling uneasy and misplaced in my personal experience of the big and small aspects of the world. Is this strange? At one point i believed i had diagnosed myself as a narcissist "delusions of grandeur or specialness" and i stand by that to a degree and yet i dont believe in specialness. So i shall articulate my thoughts and every comment received shal affect me in some way. Maybe you'll agree with my thoughts and arguments or maybe you wont.
For the time being this blog shall be anonymous but as i see fit maybe a picture of my "real world" self will emerge.
What context am i as a person with which to write a blog? Im a Homo-sapien male, often referred to as good looking by most and i have been offered modelling jobs as well as working for a couple of companies that are known to value people for their looks and this has fuelled the "small" sections of the blog, the associated narcissism and hedonism that comes with this environment. My main occupation is a student (Politics...even better)at an ok university meaning that most will dismiss this as a young adult angst blog, but i disagree. I have no insecurities with people or feeling of social awkwardness, i feel popular and am told that i am "cool" enough so this isnt dysfunctional child number Xbillion talking. In the main i get more than my fair share of the opposite sex as well, i have a stable girlfriend of two years as well, however well that has mixed with university life i shall not comment. I come from a lower middle class family with professional parents who both work for the government.
Personality wise im probably seen as very extroverted, happy with life and slightly energetic by others. I often have moments of sarcasm and i will participate in high brow conversation, apparently i have "the gift of the gab" and get on with people from most cultures very well. However on the inside i cant help thinking about this feeling of not fitting in with the world and not being on the same wavelength as my peers.
Politically (important so you can see any bias in my blogs) id describe myself as quite a big libertarian on domestic politics and most of my blogs on the "big picture" will be on civil rights and individual freedom. However i do seem to show quite a harsh conservative side on crime so i dont how that can be reconciled.
Thats me set up almost, now we can start blogging
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